Monday, July 5, 2010
Dear blog,
I am here again. Once again. But now, im all alone. Yeah, i know. hmmm. Its been a bad week,days and maybe year or even life. Haiz. A big HAIZ... I know, ive been a foolish, but I still love her soo much... Every moments, shes on my mind. Shes always there, I swear. Every moment I kept thinking of her, what she had been doing, is she fine, i can hardly know now... Ive been knowing every single step for a year plus, and now... haiz. I put on fade. Maybe this is my fade, loving a person that i cant be with again... Why me? Why?:( Sometimes i feel why life is sooo cruel. I felt so lonely.. Tears always run down my cheecks. what can i do?? haiz. I dont know what to do. I love her from the bottom of my heart, my words i kept it, i wont betrayed it. Why my mouth like a fucking idiot where in my heart, i didnt meant it at all. Why i want to leave a person which i really love and cant live without. Its all a misunderstanding... I wish i can hold her in my arms again and not to let go. I stumble and fall and make my mistakes, but i learn frm mistakes. I still remember how we used to laugh,the fun and laughter we had together. The day we met each other, the day we were fate to meet, and the place we always meet in the morning. Shes always in my mind.. Why issint there any chance for me? am i that bad? am i? my heart turns grey when shes not there.. Im not sure if shes think about me, but thats okey, im always thinking of her even though i did not cntct with her.. god, help me. Ive always prayed, for her, for me and for us. I just want us to be haapy again, like old times.. i just ... love her....pls god. help me...Nxt week it shuld be our 1yr 5mmths, but haiz. I still keep and hope for the promise. I miss her badly...:( WHY? WHY this is happening to me?:(
haiz.
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